Just as the title says, the more things change, the more they stay the same, this is the one phrase I can find to define my life as of now. We seem to be going through changes in our home, but it seems like those changes are keeping us in the same routine. I feel like our life is being dictated by this doctor visit or that doctor visit, or start this medicine or drop down a dosage in this medicine. It seems like in just the past few weeks, our lives have taken on big changes, that I am still getting used to.
Doctor visits and medicine seem to rule Kaizer's life, more than anything. He is now on 11 meds a day and who knows when this will change. He gets allergy shots twice a week, which he hates, but he knows he has to have them. He takes 6, sometimes 7 meds before first thing in the morning, add on his 2nd dose of medicine at lunch, and then at dinner he takes 2 more doses of medicine. Before bed he takes 3 to 4 more meds. He is one tough little guy. He has been on meds since he was 4 months old, for him this is just a part of life. We do try to give him at least 1 day a month to be med free, we have only done it twice and it seems to have a negative effect on him. He can't quit the meds without horrible breathing and stomach problems. I am thankful he has the meds so that he can function in his day to day life, don't get me wrong, but I do hope for that one day when he will need no meds to make it through! Oh what a great day that will be! I keep a check-off list taped to my cabinets to make sure I know exactly what he has been given and trust me, I get made fun of for having it, but that has been my norm for so long! I need this list to function! I can't even imagine trying to make it through the day without my list!
Another big change was leaving our church. This decision wasn't easy to make for us and we had been praying on it for some time. FGBC was like our family and we are thankful for every prayer and encouraging word we got from the people there. We felt it was time for us to go when we hit a spiritual stand still. Our desire to go to church was gone and we really didn't care if we were there or not, that is how bad it got for us. Leaving FGBC was a hard choice for us, but we know it was the right one. FGBC was our first true "family" church. If it wasn't for us sending Kaizer out there for VBS in 2009, who knows where we would be now! Kaizer learned so much about Jesus and God in our short time there and that means more to me than words could say! Who knows if we will ever be back out there, but if we don't then I know God has a plan for us!
Our changes come and we take them all in stride, that is all we know how to do. Our life will always be in one changing cycle or another, but I wouldn't have my life any other way! This is the life given to me by the big man upstairs through many answered and unanswered prayers, thankful for every blessing I have!
