The Good Stuff!

Thursday night as I was sitting in my Experiencing God study group, one of the group members made a very profound statement that has stuck with me! This statement is one of truth and one that all should hear:
When God writes my story, He will only write the good stuff!
Think about that a minute, He will only write the good stuff! As we read in Exodus about Moses story, we find he murdered a man, but as you read in Hebrews, that isn't mentioned. God forgave him of the sins he had committed and he never brings it up again! Wow what a blessing that is! When God forgives us, it is forgiven all the way as the east is from the west! God doesn't throw in our faces that things we did before we were saved, He forgives and that is it! Thank God for that grace!
Now if only we could do the same! We think about the sins we committed everyday and we ask God why forgive me, don't you know what I have done? God knows what we have done, God knew what we were going to do before we ever did it, yet He loves us, pursues us, and forgives us anyway! God sent His son to die for our sins, already knowing what those sins would be. I can just tell you, for me, I don't understand why He would love someone like me for the things I did and I think most of them are pretty horrible.
Even after I got saved and I still chose the road that wasn't the best. I was drinking daily for about 19 months when I was in high school, and there were times it got really scary. There were days I woke up and wondered how I had gotten in the bed because that wasn't the last memory I had. I played the Christian game good though. I was a great Sunday morning Christian, but Sunday afternoon through Saturday, those were my days, not His. He knew how I would be through that time in my life, yet He forgave me and loved me anyway! What amazing grace that is!
It is up to us to forgive ourselves. We can go to the altar every Sunday and cry out to Jesus, but until we lay down our baggage and refuse to pick it up, we will always feel like why me. I am no expert in laying that baggage down and leaving it there, but little by little I am dropping my bags off! Every altar visit, I lose 1 more chain link in my long, long chain of forgiveness. Jesus doesn't want us weighted down by our baggage that He has already forgiven us for, He wants us out changing the world! Jesus set me free when He came into my heart and I truly started to live for Him! I didn't do it right everytime and most of the time, I still don't do it right, but I know when my story is written in the book by God, He won't bring up all the garbage, just the good stuff! Amazing Grace, My Chains Are Gone!

Disgusted

I am really upset and disgusted at the actions of grown people tonight. We took Kaizer our for ice cream tonight at Baskin Robbins. We took him out as a treat for doing so well in school this week and getting so many AR points. He was student of the week this week and he has 95 AR points, that is a huge deal to us! He has worked hard for those points so he earned this special treat! But anyway! Before we left, we got him dressed, blue jeans shorts and a Phineas and Ferb shirt. We let him pick out his shoes and of course he picked out his John Deere boots! That has become the norm for him, shorts with his boots. He is 5 and he loves his look and you know what I do to! I think he looks very cute, but I am his mom! As we were leaving, a family of 5, 2 adults and 3 teenagers were sitting enjoying their ice cream and the mom of this family took a look at Kaizer, she taps her husband to get him to turn around and look at him as well. They both start to get quite a giggle at my child's outfit of choice. They are grown ups, not kids, grown ups and they were laughing at MY son. I said out loud so I know they heard me, yes he dresses himself and this is what he likes to wear. They gave me quite a look as well, sort of a, how can you let him come out in public like that look. He wore his shorts and boots to school and none of the kids there laughed or made jokes at his expense, but yet this 2 adults had the audacity to do it. You know what he is 5, I have seen adults in much worse than boots and shorts. Hello this is KY, this is what the boys wear here! If you don't like it, then you don't have to look. But you know if you do look at him and you don't like what you see, then STOP LOOKING. Yes, I know he will get picked on in his life, all kids do, but by other children, not adults. As a parent, I am upset and hurt that someone would even laugh at him over such a petty thing. Grow Up or Stop Looking, he is 5 and he looks just fine!
Sorry for the ranting, but this really ticked me off.