After putting this blog off for many weeks now, I guess I am ready to type and release some of these feelings I am keeping inside. The thought of moving was so overwhelming at times that I had no idea where to even start...money, packing, boxes, new school, new jobs, friendships left behind, and yet the unpacking. Needless to say, alot of things I put off til the very last minute, I was still packing as Tim and the guys were packing the truck!
When Tim lost his job in May, after 11 years at Amazon, that was more than I thought I could handle, but when he started applying for jobs in Evansville, I don't know if we even really thought he would get a job here, not because of him, I guess we just thought God wouldn't open this door for us. Of course our plans are never God's plans! God did open the door for us and Tim did get a job in Evansville, so of course we knew moving was our option. I, of course, starting applying for jobs in Evansville as well and I was hired too! It looked like we were Evansville bound!
Coming back home after learning Tim got hired, I took a look at our little apartment that had been home for 8 years and realizing I only had about 5 weeks left in this space, just took my breathe away. For 8 years we had ,ade this apartment home, our very first home together, this is the home we brought Kaizer to, his first steps and first words, all took place in this apartment. How do I pack up these memories and say goodbye?
In Feb 2003 when Tim first got the apartment, I was still in high school, I was only there on the weekends. But when I graduated, I moved in full time! We had a loveseat, a bedroom suite, and a futon mattress, but it was our home! In July of 2003, we got married and had our reciption in this apartment! So many close friends and family came to see us! Oh the memories! I remember thinking how big that apartment was at the time! Little did I know how small that 2 bedroom apartment would become!
In June of 2005, this was the place where I had a wonderful nursery set up to bring home the sweetest little boy ever! This little boy took his first wobbly steps in that nursery, he screamed his first word at 4 months from that nursery, momma! This little nursery had seen him grow from a crib, to a toddler bed, and then into a big boy bed! I had got my mind wrapped around packing his room by myself, not the best choice, lots of tears! After 6 years of my little man, only knowing 1 room as his, it was time to move. I was not prepared for such a task. Looking around that empty space after loading the truck, it was very surreal to remember his room from nursery to now, I choked back many tears, but many fell as well.
Moving also meant leaving behind his school, my little Eagle would soon become a Caze Cougar. I cried his first day of school at CES, so there was no way I could move him! He got the best teacher this year at CES, she is not only his teacher, but one of my close friends! Through his year at CES, we got close to many of the staff members at CES and we hated to leave them. He got his autograph book signed by so many, Mrs. Skaggs, Mrs. Ward, the office staff, most of the people he knew! I am so used to knowing everyone at the school and being able to voice my fears or needs for my child, getting to know this new school, is very hard on me.
Kaizer had his first day of school yesterday and it was not an easy day. He couldn't sleep very good the night before, his little nerves just working overtime. As I was filling out papers for the school, his nerves got the best of him and he threw up. My poor little Peanut wasn't ready and neither was I. Lots of tears for him and I, not that his 2nd day(today) was any better. I hate that this transistion is so hard on him.
Leaving behind all of our friends and family was just as hard as everything else. Going to see my dad was really hard on me, we both cried. We have such great friends in Campbellsville, that we hated to say goodbye too. We had just moved to a wonderful new church family that we had to leave behind as well. Living Grace took us in and treated us like family without judging us, hopefully we find a church just like that here in Evansville!
Sorry this is so jumbled, but just had to get it all out! Just so all our Campbellsville friends know, we love you all so much and we will be back to visit! To those we didn't get to say goodbye to, we are so sorry, but again we will see you all again! I sure hope Evansville is ready for us because we are here to stay! There is no way I am packing up again, at least not for a while anyway!
